My Life..

As darkness nears
I feel the bitter air
Invade my lungs.

My breathing labors
As the night's chill
Sucks the life out of me.

Slowly, I drift away
Light-headedness fills my soul
My every move a mechanical dream.

I am fading fast
Fading into a world of blackness
A world of death.

Haunting laughter echoes in my ears
Ringing louder, louder still
I cover my ears - the pain too intense.

I let out a scream,
Panicked and shrill,
But the silence engulfed in and nobody heard

People think i am a peace of meat
there is no heart nor any beat
I try to be happy
but always find defeat

THere r steps on grounds
but there is no one
exept my own wounds

Where can I find true and loyal friends
I'm sick of the lies, fights and revenge

Hurt continuously,
hurt at a young age
How do I love again with all of my rage

How do I get past all of this,
show me a sign
So I can leave my sadness
pain and crying behind

This pain lingers in my heart, mind and soul
Damn it - why is this world so cold

I should move on,
it's all in my past
But my pain remains,
continues and lasts

Loneliness
Heart ache
Must I be disturbed?
Desolate
Forlorn
Will I always be alone?